I did it!!

I have been afraid to walk the seawall by myself for more than a year and a half now, and today I did it!!! It's sad really, that it took this long for me to get back out there again because walking the seawall used to be as natural for me as...well, walking. I used to do the entire 10k at least twice a week. Needless to say I didn't quite make the whole thing today, but I did do 7k. And can I ever feel it. I walk very fast when I'm out there. Fast enough to even pass some joggers. And it felt SO good to be out there on my own again. Remembering how it feels to know I can do anything, because that's what happens to me when I'm out there. I get my perspective back, and know that I can handle whatever life is throwing at me. My legs are killing me, but in a good way, and when I got home I had to peel my jacket off. Ew.

I'm officially off the medication now. It's been 10 days. It's funny, even though I know I felt good on the medication, I'd forgotten so much of what was good about not being on it. Like how good spring smells, and the way the birds sound in the morning. With the medication I guess I just stopped noticing the things I used to use to help get me through the days. Now I'm remembering more of them every day, and I like it. I am, however, considerably more emotional than I have been over the last year and I'm not sure I like that much. I'm hoping that the more time I'm off the medication will make a difference to that too. Sort of like practice makes perfect? The more I get used to feeling these things again, the better I'll be able to handle them.

I'm freezing. I'm still wearing my walking clothes and the back of my shirt is soaked through! And it's cold in here. So now I'm sure you'll all be very happy to know that I am going to go have a SHOWER!

Enjoy your day! We might be going to Whistler when he gets home from welding class.